Trust has become one of the most important things in my life at the moment. Trust in the world, people and mostly in God. Something I never thought I would have. Trust was something that did not really exist in my life. I had a hard time finding good things in the world and I was very discouraged by a lot of things.

When I was six years old I started to sing in a church choir and several years ago we started singing the typical Taize songs. When my choir went for the first time to Taize, some of the participants came back telling me that it really was something for me. Meeting young people, sharing stories, backgrounds and cultures. As I was always very interested in cultures, this spoke to me very much.

So in May 2003 I went to Taize for a week. A week where I was overwhelmed by the way people spoke about their faith, their struggle in life and the world. It changed something in me, but after being home again for some days, this good feeling was gone. A good feeling of sharing, of being heard and of coming closer to God. A feeling I experienced again when I went for a week to Taize in August 2005.

But because this feeling disappeared every time I went back I figured out that I wanted to stay in Taize for longer time as a volunteer. And because I had to choose a subject for my bachelor thesis for my study, Cultural Anthropology, I thought it was a good idea to combine the both in one. I would do my research in Taize.

During my research time of three months I discovered more and more my relationship with God. It has always been there, the relationship between God and me, but I think I never accepted and recognised it. At the end of my stay I decided to finish my bachelor thesis and my year at university and come back in the summer to deepen my relationship with God, my trust in God and to get this feeling of coming closer to God not only in Taize, but more within myself so I can just take it with me wherever I go.

Finding a home in coming home to God.